MY GRADUATION GIFT

 THE GIFT FROM MY SISTER IN LAW

THE GIFT FROM MY ELDER BOTHER

i'm seriously got to thanks my brother and sister in law for giving such surprise present as my graduation gift and this coming sunday is my convocation. Actually i should feel very happy and excited but when the day is near the corner it just remind me how useless i am. i'm suppose to be study hard in my 1st year and never extend for extra 1 trimester. Because of this extended trimester cause my beloved elder sister doesnt have chance to see me step on the stage and received my scroll of graduation. Each time when i saw my mum cried i don know what i can do. i'm always only can stay besides her and silently take care of her.sometimes i do felt the feeling of crying but i cant, sometimes when i force myself to cry but there is no tears come out from my eyes. All the feeling is just keep on struggling inside my heart. While i received the gift i felt so happy but i saw my mum look at the gift and cried i felt so sad. Each time i need to struggling with my own emotion is very tiring. why human live in this living world got to suffer for so many things, people always said don worry be happy, but sometimes it is not easy to apply this word in or daily life.

accident~~

I suffer for a car accident at 26 september 2011, time: 6.32 pm. This accident is happened while i'm on the way back from my workplace. what i can said is fate, my colleague call me while i'm just passed by the junction to the main road. he told me in front got happened a very terrible car accident so he asked me to follow another way to go back. after he told me i'm still wonder myself, i should follow his instruction or not but suddenly he called me again and told me my admin manager want to follow my car and ask me to be the road guide. When i know there is someone need my assistant i wont reject even i'm still wonder, so i decided the way and go straight away... that day my mood is not that good because since morning my boss keep on coming inside my office and quarrel with me about the experiment result so while i'm driving my mind is not stable. The accident is happened while my car crossed over a small bridge, my tyres cross by the bump near the bridge. after that my car straight away loose control and bang to the lamp posts. Luckily i don have any external injuries, just got some minor internal issue only. After rest for 1 week then i feel better edy, but somehow this accident do cause some issue for my body. Today is my 1st working day after that accident, i felt my body strenght is turning down, my concentration while working also turning down, and i'm easily felt dizziness. 

WILL THIS MINOR ISSUE TURN WORST IN FUTURE AND SUDDENLY END UP MY LIFE?? I'M NOT SURE...BECAUSE THE DOCTOR SAID I'M FINE...SO NOW THE QUESTION HERE IS WE SHOULD TRUST DOCTOR OR OUR SELF?? ANSWER IS DON KNOW.....HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH